The loner is lonely

I'm awake in the night again, disconnected and bleary. See I never really fit in anywhere, neither belonged nor wanted to anyway. It seemed irrelevant though as most of my life I had to bulldoze through the foul of existence. Extreme living, the reality show for which I didn't sign up.

Read a forum, comment on a blog post, like a pic. That's my extent of connecting with others since I discovered the internet way back in the early 2000s. Firmly on the track to dementia as recent research suggests.

Don't really like people and the feeling is mutual, no doubt. While it's improbable I'll find friends at this stage, sometimes the need to be among my species is strong. Support groups would be best as I enjoy listening to stories. But that means getting out of the apartment and the hermit doesn't like that.

Perhaps an online support group with live video talking/listening? Need to find an affliction. Anxiety, depression, anti-social introversion...